sEveral arts ^U^



they are characters of one person from DA who I made art-trade with


my OCs:


art to winner of my art-auction on gaiaonline


Commission to Aoino from Deviant Art


OC of person who caught my kiriban 40 000 on DA

I wasn't here for so long time
it is not my fould... I have several problems in my real life, and I can't play/write/draw as much as I usewd to
several of my newest arts that I am proud about ^U^

Sephiroth fom FF7



Fairies family ^U^




my art to Konecon convention



Sweet gaiaonline avierts ^^



My Luna @u@





My other-story-OCs

Ranschoru Chikadoya:


and Catheliera Beroniq


thx for watching ^U^

X3 ...OMG another incest.... I generaly don't like yaoi/shonen ai fatherxson... but misterious dark side of my soul seems to like Vergil x Nero pairing ;p

editing.....kills me X.x

I have vacation ...but I am still busy X.x ....
tomorow I am going for next one convention so I won't be here...again TT.TT


my doll making progress:
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OMGF ..he is almost finihed @@ ... I even finished his head right now (need make photo)
I would want finish most parts of my doll today, so I can take him with me tomorow.





I am back in my drawing mood ... finally @u@
but... I still can't edit drawings...
upper part is too dark...lower one is to bright...colors died... >.< *sniff*
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I want draw several Kuroshitsuji chibis more. I wanted to make (besides 7 chibis I've alredy made) Gabriel, PluPlu, Bardo, Tanaka, Lau, Ranmao, Druit, Meirin, Lizzy and Lady Red.... this mean..almost all characters. Maybe I will draw them on convention...

I still can use my tabby ;p
I was worried I forgot how to use it
^^;
it is just fast art..but I like how it looks like

and an art with my OC on the end (previous one is with my charas too ;p )




My friend was in Berlin several days ago, so I have 7 more copic ciao markers now .and 7 inks to my long died copics ;p

(I don't unerstend people who anre saying that ciao aren't real copic markers.... >.< why ... thay are little and have less ink inside, but when someone use copic various ink, can full more markes with it..and more of them can be taken to one case. ciao's tips an't be changed... but I don't need to change them, they can't be used with areograpg...pfff it is too expensive for me. CIAO are as good markesr as other copics >.< ... and are very good for people who have less money)

I have singstar microphones...but I can't instal ultrastar to work with 2 of them >.< ..help? *.*

~~~I need to draw some porn .... I have locked journal because I was going to post XXX-drawings here.... ;p

My journal is going to be friends only.
Not because I want write something people arround me can't read , or draw somethind they shouldn't see
Ask and add me,  or just add me and I'll add you too
but
There are several person I don't want to see what I have here

so

friends only, just as my protection from my enemies, and people who are making me sad


.............
also
I am going to send my hentai and yaoi dawings here
and I really don't want my family to see them

........

i am in very bad mood from several days, I am ill, I have too much shool work, and ....
(any other personal feeling are going to stay personal)

I am making dollfie @@
because I have too little money to buy one ;p

my goal:

my first project:


I'd made too big parts, and decide to add more joint after parts were ready, so my doll form 23cm chibi turned into 35 cm child doll


now it looks like that
no...he isn't going to hafe feet in knee .. it is just joint trial


me making my doll -> CLICK ->

I am making doll of my beloved OC star ^U^

commissioned art from gaiaonline

Drawing from photos is difficult
generaly my arts based on stock photos look much more ugly then when I think about pose myselfe.
This one isn't as good as I wated it to be too
but it looks cute to me
(it is my wallpaper now ;p .. I like to put my drawings on wallp ^^; ) ( click to see fullsize)



I am going to re-edit all my good-looking arts older then februart 2009
for egzample:

1.) made 2 years ago                              



2.) How I've edited it today morning




I know this art looks strange but I like hi expression
My OC Star



I need pactice anatomy and shades
need very much >.<

;p I am making avieARTS on gaia
this looks strange to me
faces are like "not in my style" drawing at 2am can make arts look strange ;p



friend told me that this moe below looks good
it is almost the same like orinal avie ;p


@@ 13 of my 56markers alredy died
need buy ink to copic
several blenders
and all my dead pro-markers colors
+about 10 new colors of copic @@ much
poor me will be more poor ;p
(I am not poor, but I have no own earned money. I need to fing job >.< )

Do you think it is good idea for me to make commissions?
my friend told me I should
but ...it seems to be little strange to me
can you help me and write your opinion?





.......new arts made by me ;p


they are OC of http://atarashii.deviantart.com/

TT.TT I am in bad mood
or rather
in sad mood
I feel so lonely and un-loved

one of reasona of my sad mod is  my comic
I've never though something I am drawing form myslef pleasure can make me cry

second is thay I feel like my friends forget about me TT.TT
...
>.< I need find my way to be happy
@.@ the faster I do that the better
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Last days addiction = 100% twincet mania
(I've read about 30 chapters of several devil may cry, shama king, fushigi yuugi, ouran hightshool hotcub, etc fanfiction... @@ my eyes are (were) in pain, only to find hot-yaoi-tewincest scenes in teh ;p)
and I've realized that in my comic there is no twins @@ ....how..... (there will be....but not soon)

my  biggest twincest addiction right now:
Tony x Gilver (dmc novel1)

>.< I can't draw realistic faces ... I  sometimes think I realy should give up, and lern how to draw better in anime style

pose on my arts is always >.< completly diffrent then on phot I use as references TT.TT
and colors are strange


The worst think is tham my "anime style" drawings look strange too


>.< ...life is brutal
;p but I am still drawing manga ^^;
soon I should post new version of my comic ...somewhere
(sometimes I wonder what makes me still try )

PLEASE
STOP ANNOY ME PEOPLE TT>TT
I REALY can have my own opinion @.@
Well I am person who start arguing very easily last time..end everything because one of may so-called "friend" behavior.
Talking about anime, manga, games etc... I have my own opinion if I like something or not. Every time when I don’t like her favorite anime series he is blabbing several hours how good the anime is when start thinking how to kill her... I'm sometimes talking about my fav series too (generally when I draw fanarts) but I (generally) don't ask non-stop "why she doesn't like it when it is so damn awesome (generally= when she is asking 10th time why I don't like XXXXX I am starting do the same with my fav series just to shut her mouth up >.< ).
It started long time ago form "Tomb Rider" game. I liked the game whilst he didn't . She was talking several hours per day why I shouldn’t like the game… it was annoying, o I just stop talking about the game just to calm her down. Next was Sailor Moon, I hate this, she like…. So she was talking non stop about the anime, no matter I was listening or not … so I start talking about my fav, Dragon Ball . She stop talking about SM…she started giving me arguments why DB is stupid…till time she watched it..and decided to like. So … I have to listen why one or other character behaves in different way then I think…I just couldn’t have my own opinion… I still don’t know why is she my friend ;p … Next one was Saint Seiya. I hated this anime (now it’s one of my fav … because of my friend Silene who really love it ;p ) she liked it… “unfortunately” I started learn how to draw…so she wanted me to draw my most hated charcters >.< . Some times after that I’ve made her love FF7 . My opinion – Sephy = fav chara, he isn’t bad at all, her opinion Vincent fav chara, Sephy is living evil …. So I had to listen why should I like Vincent not Sephy  (and I was drawing Sephy killing her ;p ). …etc… it happen each time when I don’t agree with her opinion ..but…last time….. She just “killed” me.

Hindmost Stars’ Sentry is my manga, I am drawing this, all characters are made by me… I one of chapters main chara is almost killed by other chara… She was talking to me several hours why it can’t be like that. 

She: “blablablabla”

Mr: “but it is my comic”

She: “and what because of that? Blablabla”

Me: “No! I am the author of this….so it just IS like that”

She: “no it cant blablabla”

Someone…kill her for me

AND WHY THE HELL SHE IS STILL MY FRIEND >.<

 

(now we (or rather she) are arguing about “dmc”(why Verge is or isn’t bad)  and “Karin” (why Karin can or can’t be vampire)




I am trying learn how to draw realisctic arts... >.< it is difficult.




and pic  my OC, not realistic  ;p :

This is more art-blog then journal ^^;
but... I am writing/ posting here for my own happyness ...so it can be like that ^U^

I wasn't drawin Dante x Vergil pic from so long time @@

@.@

people are telling me that I speak too much >.< ... especially English-users want me to "write" less during conversation.
well TT.TT It is because I still have difficulties in using the language ..and writing lot is my only way to practice it. So please..don't be mad if I write too much without reason..you can just don't read TT.TT
.....
@.@
I hate gaiaonline.com ... it was one of my fav pages...and now...I just hate it. Almost everything on the page is for money... almost everyone who enter the page have enough money to buy pixe-shit from the page ..it is really annoying
.....
@.@
I am still in dmc-maniac mood but several people are blaming me that I am not real fan of dmc

....Why? ....

>.< just because I like the idea of Nero being Vergil's son.

I don't know what is wrong with the idea...

Answer:

It is out-of-canon .... >.< ... I "know" that only dmc 1 ,4 and 3 are in canon...and everything beside that is out of canon …

But

Why do you think there is something wrong in liking the “out of canon” parts of dmc?

I like game, novels, comic and manga… (I don’t like anime much , and second novel and game aren’t my fave too  <-it is like most of dmc fan)

The strangest is that most of “that idea” enemies are fangirls …

reason “Vergil would never had sex with woman…(with his brother, yes of course 5times per hour …) just because he is evil..and selfish and don’t like humans)

>.<

Is he damn monk or something …. Vergil=male, male= want to have woman, evil male= want to rape woman

Why Nero’s mother must be human? Maybe he is ¾ devil …

But ok

We must stay in canon only

So

Why blue presence behind Nero looks like nelo angelo

Why Nero is talking almost like Vergil when he use yamato first time

WhyD let Nero keep yamato if he said that the sword should stay in family just 2 minutes before and one after seeing his “trigger” (or how to name it)

Why Sanctus used Nero to create “savior” when he need Sparda blood to it

Why Nero looks almost the same as Dante

I know, Nero was possessed by Yamato… Sanctus needed random devil,..Dante is just idiot…Nero looks like Dante because is partly demon..and has the same name a Vergil’s pseudonym..because… Capcom had no idea for otheR name…

….

There are 2 options

1.       Dmc is stupid game for children who don’t need think made by people who have better things to do then thinking about game scenario, characters appearance etc

2.       Nero is in some way related to Sparda … he can be

a.       His son

b.      His copy

c.       Dante’s son

d.      Vergil’s son

e.      One of twins’ copy

f.        Devil created by Mundus (or other evil power..maybe by angus) like trish before

 

Option1 is stupid…. Idea Nero being Sparda third child is even more stupid …. So … he is copy..or one of twins’ child

I like both option

And… yes..he can be 17 …why? ..because dmc was made in Japan…. I  would be surprised if they said he is 14 …. Don’t search intelligence in it…. He can look like 25 and be 14 or look like 14 and be 30…

Nero  looks like he is in early 20 behave like little immature young man … and is 17  …only 3 years younger then he look like…not bad difference. Age in dmc is something you better forget

 

 so just please.... let me be happy with my idea of Nero being Vergil's child, and Vergil beeing not so evil which isn't so much ot of canon...(Vergil said that evil is just point of view..which means he don't intend to be bad he want have more power because stronger creatures can see "better" true) ..the idea is a good as all the yaoi fanfiction, and dante childhood stories.
Why is it wrong that I like it ?

I must draw my manga, I just must finally finish it...please someone make me sat by my desk and draw tiill it is finally finished >.<
arggggggggghhhhhhhh @.@
I need finish this fu****ing 25 pages and everything will be finished
(260pages @@ omg... it is ugly and I've changed drawing style 5times but...I'd never made something such long before @@
so even if I must draw everything again after chapter zero I am making (not because of laziness) now.. I WANT FINALLY DRAW THIS.
my biggest dream is to have my own manga
so why the hell I am not finishin the one I have

I am learning how to draw using tablet instead of pencil paper, markers etc...
and I think (hope) my ability improved
@@ I can't believe this is my drawing
(stil wip)

;p another drawing with Vergil and little Nero. It isn't yaoi ....Vergil just wanted woke up Nero ;p but .....what ever is happening..it looks like yaoi X3